Of Beast and Beauty - Jay Stacey (читать хорошую книгу txt) 📗

I’m bigger than the men of Yuan. I won’t be able to fit unless I make

the opening larger. I dig my fingers into the stone, until they bruise. I

wrench at the rocks until my muscles scream with effort. I curse myself for

allowing my body to grow thinner and weaker in my weeks wandering the

wild. I dig in and dig down and give everything I have and more, but the last

colossal stone refuses to move. Not a centimeter, not a fraction of a

centimeter.

I grit my teeth and howl with effort, refusing to fail now. Above me,

the city howls more loudly, twisted metal and crumbling glass wailing a

miserable, selfish cry for blood and suffering and death. But beneath it all is

the rush of the clean wind and, finally, a wondrous smatter-patter, the

sound of raindrops on desperately dry earth, the remarkable rhythm of rain

falling harder and harder until the drumbeat of hope pounds all around me.

The drops kiss my bare shoulders, soak into my skin, bringing me to

life like a seed waiting for a miracle.

The stone gives beneath my fingers, rolling away, falling to the

ground with a thud. Heart racing, I shove my shoulders through the

opening and tumble into Yuan. I roll back to my feet and run, around the

granaries, through the barren fields, past fallen trees and massive shards of

glass, cresting the final hill in time to see the tower fall.

And fall … and fall, loose stones scattering like bones thrown from a

medicine man’s cup, foretelling the death of anyone still left inside.

ISRA

BY the time we reach the base of the tower, my childhood home is

crumbling all around me. With barely a moment to spare, I fling myself

through the door to the outside world and out onto the path, with Bo close

behind me. As I dash for the barren sunflower patch, my bare feet crunch

through the clods of dirt that are all that remain of the cabbage field.

My breath comes fast and my arms pump at my sides; my lungs are

raw, but the salty taste in my throat only makes me feel more alive. I’m

alive. Still alive!

We’re going to make it out. We’re going to make it!

It’s my last thought before a stone fist punches me between my

shoulders, knocking me through the air. I fly—a bird with broken wings and

a belly full of pain—only to fall to the earth with a pitiful moan. My breath

rushes out, but I can wheeze only a little air back in. It hurts to breathe

deeply. There are too many sharp things inside me, fighting for a place to

exist in this soft, bleeding body. My vision swims with red, my fingers flinch

at my sides, instinctively grasping for things I’ll never touch.

I blink, pulling the world into focus, to see Bo standing a few feet

away, staring back at me, hunks of rocks falling to the ground all around

him. I try to tell him to run, but I can’t speak. Even if I could have made

words, it would have been too late.

It’s a stone no bigger than a child’s ball that hits him, but it makes

contact in the worst of places, colliding with his skull, shattering him in the

blink of an eye. I see more red, and then Bo is facedown on the earth. Not

moving. Not breathing.

My chest burns, and I know I would cry for him if my body weren’t

full of knives made of broken bones. He’s gone. As gone as I will be soon.

Soon I will not be Isra anymore.

I could find peace with it, I think, some kind of peace, enough to

close my eyes and move away from the pain, at least, but a moment after

the last stone hits the ground, he’s there. He comes running through the

wreckage, his expression as fearful and hopeful as I imagine mine was a few

minutes ago.

Gem. Gem. Every part of my being screams his name.

I know it’s him and not some vision created by my dying mind. He’s

the same as he always was, but also very different. Altered from the boy I

knew. He’s leaner, with sharper cheekbones and shadows smudging the

skin beneath his eyes. Eyes that are hollow and haunted, but charged with

energy that reaches through the air between us, electrifying my body the

second his gaze meets mine. He loves me. I see it. I know it the way I know

the darkness from the light.

My heart pumps desperately against my broken ribs, heedless of the

pain it causes as it celebrates seeing our beloved, too innocent to

understand how terrible this meeting is. But I understand. I’m dying. And all

Gem can do is watch.

Gem’s gaze travels down my body and back up again, and his steps

falter. His lips part, and the hope drains from his face, replaced by

understanding and agony and regret so sharp that I see it twist inside him,

making his desert-tanned skin pale beneath his scales. He’s staggering by

the time he falls to his knees beside me.

“Not again,” he says, his voice the rawest thing I’ve ever heard. “I

can’t lose you. Please, Isra. Please. Stay with me.”

I suck in a breath, but all that comes out is a whimper too soft and

pitiful to be called a sound at all. I can’t speak. I can’t even tell him I love

him.

“Isra?” Gem brushes my hair from my face. “Can you hear me?”

I blink and blink again, before slowly, deliberately lifting my eyes to

his and forcing my mouth to curve at the edges, hoping he can see that his

being here makes everything hurt a little less.

Gem presses his lips together, but doesn’t speak. Or move. Or seem

to notice when a piece of the dome plummets from the sky, crashing into

what’s left of the tower. I twitch my fingers, trying to point away from me,

to let him know he has to leave me and get out, but he isn’t looking at my

hands. He’s watching my face with eyes that shimmer in the murky gray

light.

“You can’t die,” he says, the shimmer becoming a shine. “You have to

see it. Needle is waiting for you. The desert is alive. Grass is growing; the

trees are budding. It’s raining. There … there’s so much. You have to see it

with me.”

I smile so big, it hurts, but I don’t try to stop it from taking me over.

Then we did it. Gem and I. We loved enough. The planet will be made

whole. There will be no more domed cities, and our people will have a

second chance. I hope they will choose peace, forgiveness.

“Needle can speak. She’s the one who told me to come find you,”

Gem says, breaking through the fog settling over my mind. “When she

stepped into the desert, she was made whole.”

As soon as the words leave his lips, I see the dream form behind his

eyes. A part of me wants to dream with him, but I know better. I won’t live

to see the desert again. I know it even before he scoops me into his arms

and one of the sharps inside me shifts and lifts and punctures, and suddenly

I can’t breathe at all. Not a whisper, not a sip.

The pressure builds in my chest, and my eyes slide closed, but for a

few moments I can still feel my body bouncing in Gem’s arms as he races

for the gate, hear him begging me to stay, telling me it’s not too late.

And then there is nothing but the slowing of my heart and the quiet

in my head and blessed numbness and separateness and softness, pierced

only by one regret. I wish I could know that Gem is safe before I go. I wish I

could tell him to lay my body down and go and be a champion for the world

the way he was a champion for me. I wish …

I wish …

I …

stop …

wishing.